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i was defined and confined by my eyes. they were the only muscles in my entire body, besides my heart, that worked. my eyes had to speak for me, smile for me, cry for me, and scream for me. after some trial and error, i was told to look up for yes and down forContinue reading “if these eyes could talk”

i cried alot. that is def an understatement. the doctors said i had less control over my emotions, but the truth of the matter was that there was nothing to be happy about. i hated when people told me to stop crying because it wasnt like i wanted to cry. i knew crying wasnt aContinue reading “i can cry if i want to”

i really wish that nurse could see me now. today was the first time i walked. granted i was using a special walker and two people were helping me, but it was def still walking!

(another lost episode) the variable was the polar opposite of my constant. they were the people in this struggle who hurt me rather than helped me. they left my world in pieces. they added to my fears and confusion and made me doubt who i was inside. they were certain nurses and visitors who saidContinue reading “the variable”

i decided to title this post after my favorite episode of lost. in this episode , desmond has to find the one thing in his life he can rely on when his whole world is falling apart. this is the one thing that reminds him who he is and where he comes from. this isContinue reading “the constant”

from the moment i blacked out to the moment i woke up in the icu, i dont remember anything except one distinct memory…I was somewhere between being awake and being asleep. i was laying down in some bed. my dad and possibly my nurse were standing over me on either side, watching me. i couldContinue reading “the great escape”

i spent my 24th birthday in the icu. and i thought having an anatomy test on my birthday last year was bad! a month earlier, i had planned the most perfect bday. my bday was finally going to be on a saturday, so i was going to host a party at my apt with theContinue reading “celebrate we will”

what the hell happened to me? that was one of the main questions consuming me. i didnt find out many of the details until much later.i remember praying that it was all a nightmare and that i would wake up and it would all be over. i wasnt stupid – i knew a stroke couldContinue reading “The worst nightmare”

imagine waking up one morning without a care in the world. imagine waking up the next time alone and in a strange place with no recollection of how you got there. imagine then not being able to move a single muscle in your body and barely able to see the world around you. imagine notContinue reading “imagine…”

Hey guys!because of nishas great idea, i decided to start a blog! i want to keep you all updated and share some of my experiences. so i have had a whole range of luck over the past year. some say it was because of science, some say it was because of faith,who knows. but iContinue reading “Intro”