Author Archives: Harshada Rajani

this is for you nisha! this is probably one of the best/worst indian songs of all time, but i have to admit, i love it because it is catchy! dancing, as most of you know, is a HUGE part of my life. ever since i was 3 years old in my pink tutu doing aContinue reading “pappu cant dance, sala!”

some days i didnt want to fight anymore but i had his motivation to keep me going. some days i did just feel like crying, but i had his silly comments to make me smile. some days i did just want to give up, but i had his strength that got me through. some daysContinue reading “you can stand under my umbrella”

i dont know if im exactly a strong girl or a superwoman. there were and still are many days where i dont feel like fighting anymore.there are some days where i just cry uncontrollably all day. there are some days when iwish this battle ended before it even started. yes it would be harder onContinue reading “rain rain, go away, come again another day”

i said no no no! just kidding, i never said no. i was always up for more therapy, and that was because i knew i had nothing to lose and only everything to gain. my brain believed that nurse practitioner (because it was the only thing i had heard from a medical professional at thatContinue reading “they try to make me go to rehab….”

this was one of the most popular songs in spain while we were there. it means \’give me back the life you took from me\’….it was january 15th – the infamous day all of our applications were due for our research opportunities for our third year of med school. but i wasnt signing any applications,Continue reading “devuelve me la vida que me has quitado”

they were my strength when i was weak. they were my voice when i couldnt speak.literally. they were my mom and dad. from day one, when all i could do was cry, my mom looked me in the eye and told me i was going to be ok. and still even when i cry now,Continue reading “im everything i am, because you loved me”

i got REALLY used to silence. awkward silences, painful silences, and frustrating silences. i had just come to the hospital where i would spend the next 5 months, or 136 days and i couldnt talk to anyone. i was with the same nurses 24-7 as they helped me get ready, gave me my medicine,and broughtContinue reading “silent night”

just keep breathing… thats all i had to do. little did i know that it would be one of my biggest challenges.i was intubated and on a ventilator for about 2 weeks. they were giving me a sedative they like to call \”milk of amnesia\” so i dont remember much. thank goodness for that becauseContinue reading “no air”

moving to the rehab hospital was def a good thing. there were no set visiting hours so people could always be with me. i never had to be alone anymore! but during the holidays, the rehab hospital was depressing to say the least. no christmas tree or ornaments or decorations. my family had christmas eveContinue reading “sometimes love comes around”

i know what everyone wants to hear – that im so glad this happened to me, that i have learned so much from this experience, that i wouldnt trade this for anything… that couldnt be farther from the truth. i dont care if you hear that on oprah, its a bunch of bs. i HATEContinue reading “dont stop believing”