Author Archives: Harshada Rajani

\’nothing was a mistake\’ btw – i dont think many of you will like reading this, but read it through. they say a stroke in a young person is worse than death. they also say having \’locked in\’ syndrome is like being buried alive. i had both, and i would describe that as being torturedContinue reading “nada fue un error”

\’dont worry, she will be fine in two months.\’ these were the outrageous words that were told to me by family members everyday. these were the words meant to comfort me and ease my mind, but instead, they enraged me. these were the impossible words that had absolutely no reason or logic behind it, norContinue reading “living on a prayer”

love vs. hate, loyalty vs. jealousy, empathy vs. envy… these were the battles going on in my head every second of everyday. thats what i was struggling with whenever i encountered anyone – family, friends, nurses, doctors, therapists, strangers, EVERYONE. instead of loving them for being there, i was hating them for their ability toContinue reading “you wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down”

i remember back in the first day of anatomy lab, it wasnt the eyes or the face of the cadaver that caught my eye, it was the hands that bothered me most. they looked so human and lifelike, but they were eerily limp and lifeless. i was reminded of that image when i looked atContinue reading “hold my hand”

That one night in the ICU I was depressed, alone, and scared, but then I heard Ruchi\’s voice and everything changed. I realized that there were other people out there who cared for me. I was reminded that there were other people to look forward to seeing. I remembered I actually had friends. i couldContinue reading “stand by me”

i think that means the music is definitely back on!!! (sorry kunal!) enough said. ps – GTHCGTH

i have a secret. ive actually had this secret for most of my life until this terrible injury.i couldnt tell anyone because i thought i would jinx it. i wouldnt even let myself feel it because i thought it would make something bad happen. but its about time i let this secret out. my lifeContinue reading “falling slowly”

(ok quick pause from the story) probably only other therapists would understand the significance of this, but on thursday, i walked the length of the parallel bars! dave was at the back helping with my trunk, sarah was at the front helping at my knees, and brandi was letting me squeeze her hand. sorry sarahContinue reading “for sarah and dave!”

i remember this terrible day like it was yesterday. it was a cold, winter day. by the end of the day, my smiles had disappeared, and my laughter was gone, and all that was left was depression. it was an awful day, a horrible day, a disappointing day… it was february 11th….the day duke lostContinue reading “the day the music died”

you all must be wondering why every title of my blog entries is the name of a song – well there IS a reason for that.the ONLY part of my body that wasnt affected by this stroke, the only part that remained completely untouched, the only part that was functioning normally, that part was myContinue reading “play that funky music white boy”