Author Archives: Harshada Rajani

So, I don\’t look like the person I was before… Emotionally, I\’m pretty similar except now with a \’Sasha Fierce\’ side to me and sometimes a \”No me jodas\” type attitude. But physically..where do I begin?! I mean I look like me, but I look a bit…off. When I say I was paralyzed from headContinue reading “Killing me softly”

http://chuppandee.blogspot.com/2009/06/allah-ke-bande-translation.html Karma is an interesting thing… Of all My beliefs in Hinduism, it was the one that made the most sense, that made the other beliefs have some meaningful context (like dharma, reincarnation, etc). You could say it kinda held everything together for me. Karma is the concept that events happen in your life, whetherContinue reading “Allah ke Bande”

Time after time-Javier colon I\’m scared…terrifed…lost…cconfused…nervous…and worried, really worried, about something everyone worries about, but, argueably, I have a lot more at stake…I am scared about my future. After many doctors told me I would eventually get better,my burning question was “When?” All of them would say the same thing, time after time, “I don’tContinue reading “Time after time”

Everyone is moving on, and I\’m still standing still. Everyone is out conquering the world, but the world is still conquering me. Everyone is living their lives, but I still am struggling to have a life. Part of me is happy that all my friends and family are insanely successful, but it makes being hereContinue reading “Don\'t you, forget about me”

\”To live doesn\’t mean you\’re alive\”– Nicki Minaj In every sense of that phrase, I died on November 29th, 2008. But sometime in December 2009, over a year after my stroke, I finally felt, quite simply, alive. Even though, it was only for a few moments, it felt so real to feel something other thanContinue reading “Still Fighting It”

I know a secret…an evil secret. Most of you won\’t like it, but I have kept it inside long enough. The world is a scary place. People hide behind phrases like \”Don\’t worry, It will be ok,\” \”it\’s all part of God\’s plan\” and the worst quote, \”Everything happens for a reason\”, instead of acceptingContinue reading “Chasing pavements”

But, unfortunately, they do… I\’m not talking about Adolf Hitler or Osama bin laden, i\’m talking about something different. Something that can control your every action, something that balances you between sheer genius and sheer insanity, something that can make a perfect life not worth living in a matter of seconds. I\’m talking about theContinue reading “No one man should have all that power”

Song Boredom used to be a luxury I enjoyed occasionally during rare holidays at home when I didn\’t have 500 things to do. It felt really good to do nothing. But the day I entered the ICU, boredom became a state of being. Now, doing nothing, literally, felt absolutely awful. All day, everyday, I wasContinue reading “Dancing with myself”

(title for chaya and rajul ) when i was younger, i used to have this kind of morbid/kind of twisted dream about my funeral. i never thought about the actual dying part, but about who would come to my funeral. i was kind of cursed and blessed to actually witness my \”funeral\”. but this time,iContinue reading “I will stay with you”

april 30, 2009. i had been dreading this day for months. i couldnt believe this inevitable day was approaching rapidly. i was hoping time would just slow down just a little. but april 30 regretably came, and i had to leave the hospital and go home…most people would be so thrilled to go home especiallyContinue reading “Here I go again on my own”