One sweet day

\”They say the two most important days in a person\’s life is the day you\’re born, and the day you discover why you\’re born.\” – Viola Davis

The day I was born – December 13, 1984 and the day I discovered why – November 29, 2008 – the day of my stoke. It was a horrible day, a tragic day, a devastating day, a day where I lost everything, but, I know, sadly, that one, singłe day will forevèr define who I am, and who I will be. As a result of that day, however awful it was,  I now know why I\’m here and what I can bring to this mad world. Sharing my story, my fight, my pain is what will make me one insanely experienced and sympathetic doctor or an honest and passionate writer. Its kind of freeing to know, without any shàde of doubt, what exactly you are meant to do. Think about it, I can say the most cliche line to a patient, \’I know how you feel\’, and ACTUALLY mean it. I\’ll have automatic \’street cred\’ and the war scars to prove it. Now, just because I see the possible value of my experience, it does not discount AT ALL the fact that I would give anything, my heart, my soul, my life, not to have this experience at all… I wish it all away every night, but face it all again every morning, with a little more disppointment, a little more fear, and a little more hatred than the day before. But, maybe, from my pain, someone will find peace. From my fears, someone could gain perspective. From my hate, someone could find inspiration. From my fight, someone could find strength.  But. I refuse to be a martyr, to sacrifice everything I am, everything I have, everything I want, to lead a life of suffering, so others may gain something from my experience. That\’s a bit too selfless, even for me. I deserve to be a little more narcissistic, and less masochistic. So, I\’m waiting for a third day, and boy, will it be one sweet, sweet day. For me, if this third day doesn\’t happen, the first two days won\’t even be worth it. This third day, will be the day I beat this thing, the day I regain some semblance of my life, the day this whole, horrible nightmare is behind me, the day I win. But with every frustrating second, every disappointing year, every painful nightmare, this days seems to be slipping farther and farther away, out of my grasp, out of my reach, out of my sight. Though my sweat drops during the day are full of fight, my teardrops at night are full of hopelessness. I realize this may be out of my hàndß, no matter how hard I try. Then, whose hands is it in??? Tim Tebow, obvi. ( JK! But i do ❤ him). But like Tebow, I believe in that "hopeless comeback".(Good Read)

When there\’s nothing going right for you an your team, when everything seems hopeless, when you feel like your fighting for a lost cause, something happens, and you win. Whether that something is divine intervention, positive, strong beliefs from you and your team, or just dumb luck, that something is magical. So here goes nothing. With a hail mary pass, a trick play, Jesus, Allah, Ram, or just some luck, me and my team (what up Rajanis!), will win.

7 thoughts on “One sweet day

  1. You are an inspiration to everyone you meet. I feel so blessed to have even met you. I know and believe that you will win this fight and I look forward to the day when I can fill the prescription with your name on the prescriber line!


  2. Your choices of action may be limited—but your choices of thought are not.— AbrahamExcerpted from the workshop in Chicago, IL on Saturday, May 25th, 2002


  3. Harshada all your blogs are just stupendous!!! Not to just shower you with kind words but you truly are special & gifted, I was extremely touched by all your stories. Though we just met i'am truly honored to be in your presence,you're a fighter & together we'll fight for that 3rd day!xoxo


  4. Hey Harshada,I am sorry for all your suffering, and for how life unfolded for you. You only know what you have been through, and what you continue to go through, and what you look forward to.I don't want to say things that are easy for me to say, and that you surely have heard a zillion times, such as there is a plan or purpose. I am told and believe, that in life the worst moments bring out the best in people. I am from Africa, and life was tough there for many & our attitude is what saves us.I hope that you continue to fight and draw inspiration from people such as Nick Vujicic and Tony Robbins breakthrough videos on hulu. we will hear you speak on Ted, and you will be a kick ass doctor. Consider seeking a meditation practice to help you escape the limitations of the physical body, such as the one i follow thru knowthyselfassoul.orgyou will find happiness, thats my prayer for you!


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